¤ Awestruck
¤ -06/5/06

Dear Belinda,

Yes. That is indeed your name. I have no idea where i pulled it from, but when i saw you, it hit me like a brick. So, there you go. Enough about that.

I haven't the foggiest on why i'm even writing in here. I never keep diaries! What was Misty thinking? Oi. I write stories, not documentaries of my particularly dull and uneventful life. Now guitar strings would've been a more practical spur of the moment gift. My supply on those are running dangerously low, and heaven forbid i go without playing a tune on my baby for a few hours. What? I see nothing wrong with calling the love of my life my baby, even if it is an inanimate object. Okay, so maybe i'm exaggerating just a tiny bit. Just a little. Or alot. I don't know! Its late, Belinda.

So, hm. What else to write about. I could be like one of those crazy, love stricken girls on TV and ramble about how i think im falling for a boy. I could write his name all over these pages with x's and o's and little bitty hearts. But that's just gay. Im sorry, no offence meant to you Belinda if you think that's cool, but...its...gay. Sure, I really like Alexander Masters alot. He seems like the perfect guy for me. But finding a little diary that is chock full of caricatures of his namesake would damage him for life. Maybe even beyond life. So all I'll say is yes, I do like him. I don't like being apart from him. But geez, i don't worship him. Maybe his cuteness, personality, and hair, but not HIM.

Now what else. I went down to the pool the other day, and met this crazy cookie name Gabriel. Sounds alot like a girl's name. Seriously. Im just hoping he spells it without an 'e' at the end. But who knows. He probably does. Anyway. I nudged him into the very clear poolwater, and he pulled me in after him! I mean...seriously. Why do that? I did absolutely nothing to deserve that. And then he proceeds to splash me. Grr. But other then that, he's pretty nice. Cute too. Those eyes are hard to turn away from, but meh. Ehehe.

What else. What else. Jazzy is being a complete kitten brat. Here lately she's had some serious attatchment issues. She's wandering the castle when im gone, looking for me, yowling her head off. Im a bit afraid she might have a beau too. The last thing i need is her having kittens. Oi....AH! Those girls are waking up. Must pretend to be asleep. Time to hide you Belinda! At least you won't suffer my horrendous fate of talking about the boytoy's at Hogwarts. aHHH.

-Fin-

¤ The apocalypse
¤ - 06/06/06

Dear Belinda,

So today is Doom's Day, supposedly. I really don't understand what is up with all that crackers. Sure, 666 is the sign of the devil, but i dont see 060606 stamped on people's foreheads. Nor do i see the anti-christ causing havoc among the little people. Come on. Everyone is overreacting a little tiny bit. Its just a date. Yeesh. And to top all that off, everyone was looking at me funny today. Yeah...like i was going to explode or suddenly bite their heads off. Im used to those looks, but not from some of those people. Gosh....so Superstitious.

The other day, I was happily suprised when Eresai Norwood, my friend from the orphanage, happened to show up in Hogsmeade. She hasn't changed too much. Its really weird. I thought i was never going to see her again, and then she pops up at my school. I bet she's going to have a hard time getting used to speaking English all the time and not french. And another thing. She seems really overprotective now. Well, at least when it comes to me and Alex. I think she's bent on discovering every little secret about him. Oi...its going to be hard keeping her in line.

Mmmm...Thats all for today. See ya Belinda!

-Fin-

¤ Oi, its chicken.
¤ -06/07/06

Dear Belinda,

Don't even ask about the title. Im just in a random mood. And my nose REALLY REALLY hurts. I ran into a wall last night. Yep, thats right. I was running, and BAM. Right in the kisser. Or the sniffer, I should say. I honestly don't understand what came over me. I don't think im going crazy or anything, but seriously. Who hears voices that say 'Bite him!' I know im a vampire and all, and thats what I do, but thats never happened before. The more I think about it, the more it creeps me out. Hopefully Alex didn't notice my odd mood. But who wouldn't. I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off. Heh.

Eresai told Alex about my fear of clowns. I've got a feeling she's planning something sinister. I know she still has that clown nose and wig that Rayne gave her when we were kids. I can see it in her eyes. She's planning to use them when we're both around Alex..or maybe friends. Maybe even Gabriel. She thinks he'd find that funny. Im going to have to try my hardest not to scream, run, and cry like a little baby. Oh don't patronize me, Belinda. I would know that it was her in the back of my mind. But my legs and adrenaline pumps would realize it until i was three miles away, and out a box of tissues.

Another thing. I met that guy named Boyd the other day in the communal common room when i was looking for my guitar and stuff. He is NOT All that he is cracked up to be. I don't really even think he's that cute. The girls in my dorm are always wooing about him. They still woo about Alex too, but since Boyd came along...he always the first. Its terribly annoying. What can they like about him? Whats my first impression? He's an arrogant, stuck up, full of himself, typical Slytherin. Reminds me of that Keagan dude. fjsfkljs. Boys like that make you want to strangle something. I had to resort to strangling my pillow....though that girl next to me looked very...er....open to strangling. Yeah. I better stop now while im ahead.

-Fin-

¤ Its Craptastic
¤ -06/08/06

Dear Belinda,

I bit Alex. Not to the point that he would turn. He would have to be drained of his blood, from his neck, and then fed a bit of my blood to turn. So, heh, he's safe. But still, I bit him! I promised him I never would. I broke that promise. It was not for blood lust or anything. The master told me to. I suppose he is alive or he would not have been able to command me. Even if a master is recognized, they must be the one that bit to excercise any control. I don't know what im going to do. As long as the master is still alive, I am in a bind. He can tell me to do things that i don't want to, and i'll have to. Aye..me. This is all i can think about today.

-Fin-

¤ Sometimes i hate my life
¤ -06/09/06

Dear Belinda,

Its true. Sometimes I really do hate my life. I just had to be cursed. I had hoped, on that day, a few years ago. I had actually hoped. Maybe my curse would've been taken away had I been able to fully kill Zacharias. Yes, that's his name. I'm only allowed to call him master out loud though, which by the way, is really gay. Anyway, because he was an experiment vampire, my good friend advised me that if i killed him, the curse would be taken away. Perhaps thats true. If so, Ill be free from it. The thought of that makes me just want to drop you and run to kill him. If only I knew where he was. The only time he ever speaks to me is when im around Alex. And that's dangerous. He could tell me to stab him, and I'd have to. But...perhaps...if i used the locating charm right when he gave the order...i could reverse it. I could find him. Hm.

Well onto Alex. I said something I really regret. While i was about to go and get my messenger bag, i mentioned that he should flirt with other girls, or something of the sort. This was after I had healed him and all that jazz. I can't believe i let that slip. I don't really have any grounds to say anything. We're not together. We are just spending these really nice times together that are the happiest of my life. But he still....those other girls have told me. I know how much i rant about the girls in my dorm, but alot of times they know what they are talking about. It hurts a little. Okay, alot. Im not a toy. Im not just out there for someone to toy with my emotions, particularly Alex. Sure, Im still crazy as a coconut for him. But number one, I bit him. And number two, well...He doesn't seem to want to make any connection to me. And i'm no friends with benefits.

-Fin

¤ Untitled
¤ 06/10/06

Dear Belinda,

Maybe life gets a little bit better. I feel more reassured about my relationship with Alex, though im still a bit doubtful. We'll see though, won't we? Im hoping that some day he can find it in his heart to forgive me for biting him. But i am thankful for him believing me. Most people would not have. The only other person i can think of, who would have believed me, is Eresai. And i've known her for years. Hm.

Keagan Howell, the notorious flirt of slytherin, happened to find me under a tree...crying. Yeah. I know. Such a wuss, aren't I? Well he gave me his handkerchief, something i found to be really sweet. And not like him at all. Since when did he become compassionate? Something is going on with him. I don't think its a bad thing. How could becoming nicer be a bad thing?

I met Ace Hunter in Hogsmeade, hehe. He is pretty funny, and cute, but I still don't understand why all the girls are going kookoo over him. Perhaps he'll show that side later. Not as if im interested, but i do want to know what makes those girls in my dorm twitter like love birds. Yeah.

-Fin-

¤ So angry
¤ -06/14/06

Dear Belinda,

You will not believe what I found out today. Alexander kissed Sundari Harmony. Yes, that's right. Ace hunter told me that he saw them in the dance hall, dancing, which is not bad. Only when that dance ended, he kissed her. It's not her fault, im sure. She probably didn't know that...there was me. So I don't blame heri n the least. How could he? URGH! It just makes me so angry. But i'm going to keep my mouth shut on it for now. If it happens again, he'll have to meet my other side. He's seen glimpses of it when i'm with Eresai, but he has never seen me truly angry. And one thing i hate is being done dirty. I've had that happen too much in my lifetime. I can't help but be crazy about him. When we're together, he makes me so happy. But...I will not get the raw end of the stick, im sorry.

Speaking of Eresai, I really got her. I set her eyebrow on fire. Yes, thats right. Hehehe. Buwhahahahah. She just had to insult me, alex, and others and then poke me with her sharp straw. It was her own fault!

Umm, well. I accidentally slipped Gabriel a love potion. >>;; That's all im going to say about that, heh. Messy messy.

-fin-

¤ Lovey Dovey
¤ 06/19/06

Dear Belinda,


Mmm, just thought i'd write about a memorable moment. Okay, so this didn't happen too long ago, but its already memorable. Remember me telling you I slipped Gabe a love potion? It was accidental, I promise! Don't give me that look. But yeah. He acted so weird, and so perverted, it got to the point that I was actually a little scared of him. And of course, I'm rarely ever scared of a guy. I have super speed, seduction, and pearly white fangs to scare them off. But I was seriously afraid.

In Hogsmeade, I punched the hell out of Eresai. I'm suprised I didn't knock her lights out. It was scary actually. For a moment there I was worried, and then I remembered what she said. It still angers me just writing about it.

-fin-

¤ Crackers
¤ 06/24/06

Dear Belinda,

I've finally gotten my dress and stuff for the summer ball. I know its a month away and everything, but I wanted to be prepared. I hate fussing over stuff at the last minute. Its really annoying, and to be honest, very painful. But its done and all things are locked away safely in my trunk! Now for a date...Perhaps Alex will ask me. Or maybe someone else. Who knows? Alex doesn't really have a tie on me since we aren't officially 'together'. Not until he asks at least. Afterall, its just a dance. Heh.

I met another Vampire on campus. I thought I was the only one now! But apparently not. Vylkire is really...interesting. His silver hair is so pretty. I wish he wouldn't wear that hood that covers it up. Its a real shame to cover up hair like that. I wonder what I would look like with silver hair.....Bah! Horrible I bet. Blue hair is more likely, hehe. But anyways...he's offered to help me fight off my master as well. I need all the help I can get.

-fin-

¤ Just a random decision
¤ 12/13/06

Dear Belinda,

Today i said, "Why the hell not." Its been six months since i've written in here so I decided i would try and update you on whats been going on. Even after all the conflict with Alexander Masters, me and him have gotten back together once more. Who knows how it will progress...but i pray that it turns out successful. He's cheered up a bit and is definitely not near as depressed as he has been in the past.

I'm running for Quidditch captain! Thats right. Im currently a beater on the team, but I would really love the captain positon. I'm running against two other girls, Ivory and Mercedes. They are both pretty sweet, but sometimes the way they act about the competition annoys me. They want it equally yet their sportsmanship seems fake. Not like im completely innocent either, though. I'll tell you more about that when its decided.

So thats all for noW!

-fin-

¤ Quite An Update
¤ 07/06/07

Dear Belinda,

Wow, it's been quite a while. So much has happened since I last wrote you. Ah well, time to get you caught up. Alexander Masters and I are no more and will never be. He disappeared then reappeared one day. That was after I had gone through a drastic change. I would call that my 'bitch' phase. I'm out of that now, though, thank goodness. A young kid called Andrew Barrington helped me on that. He was a nice guy and it was a great fling. There are others now though.

Maybe I shouldn't get involved with guys again; it always leads to trouble. But its hard. You like to believe that maybe someone would care. Will care. Sometimes it blows up in your face and other times it doesn't. That's just the way life works, right? That's the way love works.

In quidditch, I was beat out and I have to say that was the worst season ever thanks to Mercedes. Another new season has started and well, I'm still a beater. I ran for captain and might have potentially won, but my heart wasn't in it. I wouldn't have been able to completely devote myself to it. Cloe was a much better choice and she is doing wonderfully.

Next up, Darien Everett. I met the kid down at the lake. Well, if you could call it meeting him. He saved my life. I played a prank on him and well, we got on good terms from there.

Then.. there's Joshua Malone. He and I were in a play not too long ago. I really liked him... well, now I suppose you would say 'like' not past tense. The bad thing though? I turned him into a vampire. Yeah, thats right. I bit him... and fed him some of my blood. I hate it. I hate myself for it. And the worst part? Apparently he still loves me. I can't get over that. He is making me more and more fond of him but I'm afraid. What if I hurt him again but in a different way? And what happens when Zacharias catches wind of this? Sometimes I just don't know what I'm going to do....

Life is hard.

-fin-

A worn piece of paper that appears as though it was ripped crudely from a notebook was found under Blyssenor's pillow. It was folded unevenly, denoting that the message was surely from a guy; no girl would ever leave a note so unkempt. What was odd about the letter was that it had two small fang marks at the edge, and curiously smelled of cologne.

***

Dear Blysse,

I suppose you're more stealthy than I; the Fat Lady screeched at me when I tried to scramble through the portrait hole. So I had my Disapparating cat deliver this for me. Hopefully she didn't get too many hairs on your bed. All I wanted to say was, "Thanks for the reminder, but the food really sucks. Hope you're faring well. :3"

Much love,
The Slytherin

What the hell am I thinking?! It seems like I always come back to Belinda when I am fawning over some boy. Alexander. Joshua. And now another. Vorian. Thank God I haven't changed him though. Speaking of changing, where the hell is Joshua?! I've caught glimpses of him here and there... but we sort of just stopped being around each other. I've grown so desensitized to him. I've felt nothing for a long, long time.

And then Mister Vorian Atreides waltzes into my life. In the middle of the night... at the theatre (why does everything happen in the theatre?!)... and sweeps me off my feet. Love at first sight. Don't I have experience with this? I'm stupid. I really am. Not only that, but he smells positively DELICIOUS. Like.. my favourite flavour.... Wow that is quite disgusting. I'm comparing him to food. Anyway.

"Watching the stars without you, my soul cried..."

Isn't that just the most romantic line you've ever heard, Belinda? Really. How was I supposed to resist that? I wanted to eat him. Literally. And then he goes and touches my romantic side with sweet, enchanting words....

I'm doomed. I AM SO DOOMED. But he's just too perfect... Amazingly perfect. How can I not love him?

Ya know, this journal thing isn't so bad. Let's excuse the fact that I will probably forget what to write at some point. I can talk about whatever I want in here and no-one will know! No-one! It is my secret little space away from the world where I can be as crazy as I want... buwhahahaha!

Ahem. You did not hear that, Belinda. Why did I name you that, anyway? Belinda... Belinda... I can think of much more impressive names...

Oh CRACKERS! Those girls.. they're back! Must hide you. Must keep insanity a secret!

(Wow, this entry really is weird)

Love,
Blyssenor Wright

¤ Writing should be my new hobby!
¤ 03/05/2010

Dear Belinda,

I was reading back over these entries and smacking myself in the face. I was crazy! Seriously... deranged! Yeah. So.. Hmm... For some unknown reason, I was prompted to write in here. It's kinda hard though considering you're all dusty. Well, here goes.

Ivory and I have become best friends. Didn't see that one coming did you? Well it did! After I ended up attacking Vorian (seems to be a trend, huh?) she consoled me and kept me from going psycho. She's like my sister and I love her to death.

Vorian and I are starting to talk again. It's really hard... I still like him a lot, but I don't think anything will ever come of our relationship again. I screwed it up big time. Way to go, Blysse. But at least I can have him as a friend. That's better than not seeing him at all.

There's this new kid named Wesley Cotter. I. hate. him. hate. loathe. utterly despise. We had a random one night stand in the common room because he was bleeding all over the place and the vampire in me couldn't resist. Another score for the home team, right there.

Then there's Alexander. I fell down the stairs, hit him in his forehead, and broke my ankle. He lost his memory. Yep, and he chose not to gain it back. Crazy huh? I'll say. I don't really know what to make of the situation. I've heard he has been hanging out with that Jessa girl again. Fail. Absolute fail.

Hmmm. What else is there? I really don't know. I've been trying so hard to stay out of trouble but that has become so difficult. I mean, I'm practically Ivory's bodyguard. All these men are trying to get at her like a pack of horny dogs.

Meh.. more news later. I can hear footsteps. I'd really rather Ivy didn't read this. She'd be angry. You don't mess with Ivory Vein when she's angry. Nope!

Love,

Blysse <3