Title: Point | Counterpoint
Description: A place for Conan's rants and rambles.
Description: A place for Conan's rants and rambles.
Conan Lowman - August 11, 2007 09:36 AM (GMT)
Hmmm.
Is it even safe for me to keep one of these? I don't have many secrets to divuldge, but I have a feeling that none of them should be exposed to the open. Though... if I don't really think they're truly my secrets, should I be compelled to keep them inside? Maybe a pensive would be better... if I had something secure to hold it in. Journal, I... don't think I am who everyone says I am. I think I'm really someone else. Lately, I've been feeling like these memories I'm supposed to have had years ago are new... and I don't remember them happening at all, really. Like when I was five, I was supposed to have surgery to remove my appendix, but there's no scar. It wasn't a magical surgery. It was a muggle one, when "I" was "five."
"I"? "Five"?
I may have been five... I surely don't think that I was truly there.
I think it has to do with all of these weird papers and photos I've gotten. Some of them don't make any sense. What's chlorophorm supposed to be? I think it's a muggle chemical, but... I just don't know... I faintly remember knowing a lot of these words written, but did I write them? The handwriting matches the letters as well, addressed To and From people I've never heard of. Though Shinichi is always the From... and Aunt Carol called me Shinichi a few times. She doesn't anymore... but then again, I don't hear from Aunt Carol all that much, either. I wonder what happened to the old bat.
The photos that don't have to do with weird things are just as confusing. They're all labeled Shinichi and Ran, but I don't know who Ran is at all! Why does that look like me, but yet very much not like me? I get headaches thinking about the pictures. I feel like they're things long forgotten, but in the pictures, he looks older... and they're not moving, so they're not taken by wizards at all. I've gotten three of them so far... I wonder what they mean...
I should ask Riley. Maybe he would know. Let's see... This one is the girl. [] This one is the boy. [] This is both of them. []
School thought has gotten a little bit better. I've met quite a few people, which is weird. I'm a fourth year, shouldn't I know at least a lot of people by now? No one in my house seems to know me, and a lot of them mistake me for a First Year for it. Is it really because of my height? I just haven't grown since I was seven... This was probably why Filch thought he could drag my across the floor by my ankles. How weird.
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